Psalm 27

Elise Low

Text:

[1] The Lord is my light and my salvation – whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life – of whom shall I be afraid?
[2] When evil men advance against me to devour my flesh,
when my enemies and my foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.
[3] Though an army encamp against me, my heart will not fear;
though war rise against me, yet in this I will be confident:
            [4] One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek:
            that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,
            to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple.
            [5] For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
            he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock.
[6] Then my head will be exalted above the enemies who surround me;
at his tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the Lord.
                        [7] Hear my voice when I call, O Lord; be merciful to me and answer me.
                        [8] You have said, “Seek my face.”
                        My heart says to you, “Your face, Lord, do I seek.”
                        [9] Do not hide your face from me, do not turn your servant away in anger;
                        you have been my helper. Do not reject me or forsake me, O God my Savior.
[10] Though my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will take me in.
                        [11] Teach me your way, O Lord;
                        lead me in a straight path because of my oppressors.
                        [12] Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes, for false witnesses rise up                                 against me, breathing out violence.
[13] Had I not believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living…
            [14] Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.

 

Inner Voice Commentary:

[1] The Lord is my light and my salvation – whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life – of whom shall I be afraid?
Light, God, my light?  No, it’s dark.  Pitch black.  God, I’m so scared.  I want to believe them, but God, Your words…they’re just so vapid and hollow…can’t you see what’s happening to me?  The way I hide in my closet to avoid the anger in his drunken fists?  Don’t You see me crumbling?  What stronghold, God?  I’m not seeing it.  I want to believe…what reason do I have?

 

[2] When evil men advance against me to devour my flesh,
when my enemies and my foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.
[3] Though an army encamp against me, my heart will not fear;
though war rise against me, yet in this I will be confident:
He devours my flesh, that’s for sure.  He takes and takes and takes.  Every look in his eyes, every swing of his hand makes me feel…even less human, even less of a person.  What’s even left of me anymore?  What good is it if he stumbles and falls if there’s nothing left of me?  Where are you, God?  I need a reason to be confident in You.

[4] One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple.
[5] For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock.
This is what I want.  More than anything, this is what I want, what I need, what I seek.  We used to have this, God.  Safety.  Shelter.  Hope…. I want out of this utter mess You put me in.  I’ve been seeking You…I am seeking You…that’s what I want…You’ve got to be above all of this…

[6] Then my head will be exalted above the enemies who surround me;
at his tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the Lord.
What a day that will be.  Is it ever coming, God?  What’s left of me that’s worthy of You?  Nothing to sing with, nothing left to rejoice over.  I feel beyond Your help, God.  Father, how can this be?

[7] Hear my voice when I call, O Lord; be merciful to me and answer me.
[8] You have said, “Seek my face.”
My heart says to you, “Your face, Lord, do I seek.”
[9] Do not hide your face from me, do not turn your servant away in anger;
you have been my helper. Do not reject me or forsake me, O God my Savior.
I’m seeking.  I’ve done nothing but seek.  You are my Father, and yet even You seem to hide your face from me.  Why, Dad?  I can’t take this any longer.  I know You are great and I know You are good, but God, can’t You show me Your goodness?  Can you at least let me see Your Face, feel Your Presence?

[10] Though my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will take me in.
You will take me in.  I’m knocking on Your door, God.  I have nowhere else to go.  Remember Your promises. Surely You can’t ignore my knocking much longer.  I know You hear me…You’ve got to hear me.  God…Daddy…

[11] Teach me your way, O Lord;
lead me in a straight path because of my oppressors.
[12] Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes, for false witnesses rise up against me, breathing out violence.

I need Your direction, God.  Help me hear it, help me listen.  God, I’m not very good at that these days…we used to be so in tune, but now I’m just consumed…all this darkness, it’s getting the best of me.  What do I do now, God?   Can’t you show me the way out?  Can’t you be clear about it?

 

[13] Had I not believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living…

There’s no hope, no point to waking up tomorrow or trying to make it through another day without You.  You are all I have left.  You may take away my parents, but nothing will be able to take away my Hope.  Abba…Daddy…just let me rest in Your arms.

 

[14] Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.
I’m here, Dad.  Broken and fearful and tinged with doubt, but I’m here.  I’m waiting for You.  Help me be strong.  Help me see hope.